a new beginning ..

Missed opportunities,
unapologized deeds,
untold blunders,
hidden truths,
faked lies,
unwanted traits,
uncontrolled ways,
strayed thoughts,
deserted paths,
lost time !

an inconspicuous chance
to correct the wrong,
to change the bad,
to find the lost path,
to better the good,
to justify the rationale,
to improve self.
Beginning of a new dream,
to have a new perspective,
to take the dive,the
dive to exceed expectations;
to take the flight,the
flight to realize unfulfilled dreams;
to take the chance,the
chance to make things right !

beyond

Places beyond horizon,
thoughts beyond imagination,
beliefs beyond certainty.

Dreams beyond reality,
lines beyond straightness,
feelings beyond awareness.

Discussions beyond decision,
virtues beyond reverence,
miracles beyond reasoning.

Faith beyond existence,
hopes beyond possibility,
love beyond acceptance.

Deeds beyond greatness,
life beyond soul
and the realms of beyondness.

down

Tears rolled down
yet never did i frown.
Consequences of what i did
Should have put my feelings below the lid.

i tried to run away
to be more happy and gay.
But then your thoughts held me back
perhaps its strength that i lack.

Never did what ought to be done
just need the special someone
On whose shoulder i could cry,
and she would say its 'worth another try'.

Looking into the past
leaves me aghast.
Thinking of the time to come,
already leaves me numb.

Believe i would never change
understanding me is beyond her range.
Wish i could just tell
rather i would,in pain,yell.

Walk Along

Can't you just forget all

that i have done

just come and walk along with me.

To realize those blurred dreams

to see those lost faces

to relive through the pains.

Can't you just forget all

that i have done

just come and walk along with me.

To understand the vague thoughts

to enlghten my disillusioned mind

to ponder over my disinterest in life.

Can't you just forget all

that i have done

just come and walk along with me.

To rationalize my life

to overcome my fears

to smaile and walk past the mistakes.

Can't you just forget all

that i have done

just come and walk along with me.

To love back all those who care

to change the things the way

i want them to be.

the lost soul

Needs to know the meaning
the meaning of existence
of the need to stay
for even though it doesn't like the way.

Of all those who wandered aimlessly,
hopelessly waiting to disappear
of all those who lost the significance
off life , to hold and stay
and cherish the moments .

Having such thoughts in leisure
to stroll away to a different page,
to walk with someone who understands,
who can explain the weird life,
to rejoice with the face they
oft dreamt of , in open eyes .

Try the feeling of defeated ,of
how it feels to be lost in a jungle of dreams,
of memories from past , of hopes .
Wishes to be forgiven
for the broken promises,
for running away,for the unsaid words...

i feel

Never said the way i feel ,
telling would have made the pain heal,
We walked together talking about things
Wish i could tell the happiness it brings.

You say never say bye ,
well,if you'd said,i would die,
days would become difficult to be spent
unless i understand what this is to be meant !

Do you know how it feels
to be so close and yet so far ,
To say that i would be fine
just to see the smile on your face .

Only if i could explain
my desire to be lost ,
to be lost in your dreams ,
Well , only if you knew !

On the way to ...

Walked down the tough road
with dreams in my head ,
the longer i walked
darker the road became .

i take a short nap ,
someone says "son,keep walking"
i question His advice
only to find He is gone !

Wake up unwillingly to start again
find that darkness is terrifying,
i close my eyes again
and try to figure the path .

Well,now i understand my fear,
the fear that i may fail
But then as they say
you don't realize dreams without losing the way .

So,i just keep walking in the dark,
then i see a ray of light,
i see a bright rainbow ,
well, its no more a dream !!

For

For the mistakes i made
i wish i could tell
how sorry i was..

For the feelings i hurt
i hope i could do
what you wished for..

For the dreams you believed in
i desire to get
a chance to fulfil those..

For the life you dreamt of
i pray to live
only with you..

For the songs you sung
i wish i could have you to
sing another one just for me ..

For the loneliness you suffered
i would live
all my life alone ..

For the smiles you lost
i wish i could give
all my happiness in return..

For all the faith you had
i believe i had
so that you COME BACK !

....

Tried to listen to YOU

inspite of such deafening noises ,

looked for YOU everywhere

but there was such blinding light..

Prayed that YOU hear me once

but there were so many of them to hear ,

wanted to restore my faith on YOU

but always got reason against it ..

Started believing nothing is predestined

its we who decide our life ,

and whatever happens unknowingly

we call it as FATE ..

But then i understand

it is our nature to put

blame on someone for our mistakes,

and then again , i want to feel YOU ..

Everyone comes back to YOU

at some point in life ,

why give them a chance

to go away from YOU ..

miss you... :'(

yes , it feels as if it was just yesterday

don't know what made me like you

but it was you that made my days

filled with joy n craziness

i still can't believe that you

aren't with me anymore

you could have give me another chance

to say the least

i know i was not the best for you

but its the nature's way..

you can't carry a filled pot to long distances

it would be tough to live with the best

how could you let your breathe

go so easily after all that we went through

the way i hit on you..

the sleepless nights that we spent together...

i forgot my present for you

indulged in enjoying every moment with you

how could you be so unfaithful and leave me

alone with just the signs of our togetherness

seeing anybody reminds me of you

can't get my head clear of your thoughts

is there a way to forget you ??

i'll leave playin CS :( :(

perhaps did this for my good

but how can i be good without you

i need a sound sleep but you

keep striking me althrough...

instant insanity..........!!!

this untimely rains
find out who gains...
felt da absence of sumthin..
now i noe what was it..

smell da rain..
wish if i cud jus drain away my thots..
why doesnt dis always happen..
feels dat i m still alive..

all i can think of is
why cant i be dere with u..
enjoy da rains..
n forget the pains..

always thot of being carried away by winds..
[which wasnt possible!! :( ]
was gettin bored wit creepy stuff..
now got cooled by lazy rains
who tuk so long 2 cum!!

wish it always happend dis way..
dealt wit summers..
cometh da rains..
yes...pain brings joy...
now i noe !!!

don't know....!!

Lost in crowds looking for you

With a pain in my heart..

i ended up here

Maybe this is what they call as fate!!

My thoughts are scattered

and i'm very restless..

Yes i know its tough

to get happiness without sorrows!!

There isn't a moment

when your memories aren't there..

But why this separation knowing that

we are destined to be together!!

I wait for you to come

and take my hands..

Perhaps with you my solitude will be

freshened with a tinge of togetherness!!

With you i will awaken to life

from a space full of voids..

with you i shall unravel

why some things are so obnoxious to the people!!

The time has come to take you with me

and wander through the meadows ..

Let silence speak and hear

what i wished to for so long !!

To feel the presence of the unseen

to be lost in the insensitive world..

Be enlightened with the truth

To be free from the strings that

keep me from losing myself to others!!